It’s 3 in the morning and I haven’t slept a wink, my heart is thumping and my stomach is churning. Jed turned up at 9 this evening. I couldn’t understand it when I saw him standing on the doorstep. But he asked me to go for a walk with him. I thought he must have a bad problem. What a completely stupid idiot I am, it wasn’t him who had a problem. He said that he had something to say and he didn’t know how to say it, but he thought he should say it. All the while my head was saying “what the hell is he talking about†but my stomach was starting to turn, because I could see from his face it was bad news and he didn’t know how to tell me. Then he finally said it. He said he thought that Matt was seeing Jade. I couldn’t believe it at first, and I’m not sure that I do yet. Jade? I can’t believe Matt would be interested in her, it’s ridiculous. But Jed seemed really sure, and I don’t think he’d have said anything unless he was sure. He said that he’d seen them walking down the road together and he’d followed them and they went to Matt’s and didn’t come out for three hours, that was on Wednesday, and then he said he saw them again on Friday. Same thing, going to Matt’s house. The only thing that I am proud of is that I managed to keep it all together and just say thanks to Jed for telling me and then go home. When I was up in my bedroom, I couldn’t help crying and crying, the thing is, no matter how unbelievable it is, I know that it’s true, I can just feel it. I don’t know what to do about it, so I haven’t done anything yet. I want to sleep on it – that’s a laugh. I hate him, what a bastard, what a complete and total scumbag bastard. I’m so ashamed.