I got a letter from Matt today, at first I refused to read it and threw it in the bin in my bedroom, but then I couldn’t stand not knowing what he had to say. I have to hand it to him, it was a good letter and if it had been anything else that he had done, I may have started to forgive him. He said that he really loved me and couldn’t understand why he’d thrown it all away. He said that Jade had been flirting with him for ages and in the end he had a mental block and just went for it. He begged me not to think that it was anything to do with me and that he hated himself for it and desperately wanted to see me and try and explain himself. Even though he knew there was no explanation that would make the situation any better.