I’ve been thinking about the letter, and could kick myself. At first, I was feeling a bit sorry for him, what kind of an idiot am I? Then I realised that he couldn’t have just gone for it in a fit of mental blockage like he said, because as far as I know he did it twice, so it wasn’t as if it was that much of a mistake. I am never going to talk to him again. And I think I did really well in my exams today because there was no way that I was going to let them ruin any more of my life. Imogen, Jed and I are going to the Swan tonight. They were a bit shocked when I suggested it, but I need to hold my head high and not hide away from this. If Matt and Jade are there, well good luck to them, they deserve each other. Imogen laughed when I said that and said “go for itâ€!! But then she said I should be “careful not to cut my nose off to spite my faceâ€!! Imogen’s turning into a “wise woman†in the face of tragedy!! Jed offered to “smack him one†(Matt), but looked relieved when I said “no thanks†and said that we should just act as normally as we could and rise above the whole dirty lot of it. It’s good of Jed to offer, but he and Matt used to be friends, I think he was just trying to show me his loyalty, but it bothers me that that’s what his father had taught him – if in doubt, clout.